How often have you felt as though you were a nuisance? A feeling of being held accountable of your actions because others are emotionally invested in your journey?
You just want them to approve. You aren’t alone. All of us seek approval. Some happen to be better at giving off the impression that they are successful in earning it. Behind closed doors we all wet pillows with tears of helplessness.
Sounds Morbid. I know. But it is what it is.
People aren’t perfect. We aren’t meant to be. We crave the things we are most aware of not being capable of attaining. In this pursuit of perfection, an all-roundedness, we overlook our own emotions to accommodate the emotions of those invested in us.
Maybe this isn’t even your story. Maybe your story is the complete opposite of what you are reading here because you happen to be a narcissist. (Even so, continue reading and maybe, just maybe, the smallest portion of your narcissism will slip away)
The point is, unless you are that narc reading my blog, there is much to be pondered about here. Do not allow the love of the people in your life to snuff out the light you feel within. No one other than you can possibly know truly what your desires are. Follow them. Even if it doesn’t feel like it at first, the love of those in your life will follow you as well.